The name is Josie Ann. I'm a poet, a mom to be, a college student, & a Mermaid for life. This blogis a collection of my literary works & random thoughts. The title is inspired by my boy friends stuffed animal giraffe, Marty McFly. Please enjoy. ♥
Ok so I am making an oath right now to myself & Jesse, I am going to lose my pregnancy weight. There’s no doubt I got dealt a crappy hand with preeclampsia & gained about 50lbs more than I would have if I had not gotten it but I’ve accepted it and I’ve accepted the fact that I feel extremely insecure at this weight. My goal weight is 150 lbs by August. I intend to lost between 20-30 lbs. Im willin…g to post my weight on here it is 183lbs, I dont think that’s is not huge but if I let myself stay this weight there’s nothing stopping me from gaining more & continuing to make excuses. And I’m not ok with that. I’m a young parent & I intend to be active & fun for Jesse as he grows up. Not gonna start doing an extreme diet just cutting out a few unhealthy food favorites & some exercise. I believe I can do this (:
Jesse is 3 months old now & 4 times the size he was at birth. My lil man is no longer a weak little premie but a normal fat, cooing, wiggly little baby. And Im so thrilled hes healthy now but it feels a little strange now not to have to be afraid of everything anymore. And hes growing up so fast its like I blink and hes cooing now. I blink and he’s smiling now, I blink and hes holding his head now! Not only that but hes finally getting a personality and hes become very attached to me. He use to love anybody with arms for holding his fat lil butt but now hes very picky and when he wants mommy that’s the only person he wants. And I had a big sappy moment the other day. He was sitting in Sheryls lap and I walked up to him and started laughing and he turned his head right at me and just kept grinning at me. I would laugh and say his name & I got another grin after grin and I started crying. It just hit me in that moment how I brought this beautiful boy into this world and how he already loves me and knows my voice and he doesnt even know what colors are or what his own feet are but he already knows deep unconditional love. And knowing that love is directed towards me, well I just feel incredibly blessed. What did I ever do to deserve such love? I could of died on February 10th 2012 and lost my most precious gift to this world along with me but instead we made it like the tough stuff were both made of it and god am I so thankful. ♥
The few people I feel that way about arent worth mentioning.
Not typically unless the person really deserves or I’ve given too many chances.
really hoping to start writing again soon. I miss feeling inspired. I keep asking myself how should mom josie write compared to how i wrote before?
